It is very cool in general to be in the place where everything started. Technically, Isaiah & I knew each other in college, liked each other at different times Senior year, kept up via phone, and were dating long distance by the time I saw Isaiah here at the Boardwalk last August.
However, the Boardwalk is still our place.
We hadn't seen each other in two years when I stepped out of his family's Korean Van to meet him here at the Dunn House (where I'm currently typing). He knew he was already in love with me, but I didn't know he was, so I spent the entire van ride nervous about if he'd like how I looked after two years. His sister Geneva sat in my lap, giving me comfort, as I worried and prayed over & over that my focus would be correct. It turned out that he didn't only like how I looked, he was already totally into the entire me. As soon as he told me this, I was more free to officially fall for him too. And we haven't stopped falling since.
Coming to the Dunn House in general and remembering where we first locked eyes after two years is awesome enough, but driving by the place on the pier where we first held hands, getting to rest my head on his shoulders in the chairs at the Boardwalk Chapel again, and even wearing some of the same clothes we wore that week of reunion & joy brings great delight to our hearts, esp. to mine. I feel utterly loved by my husband most of the time. I know that I am his Beloved. But here, in the place where we really began to become one, I feel what being his Beloved means all the more.
Yesterday, after trying to kayak and being told the winds were too high, we visited the Sea Wall instead. The Sea Wall is this amazing concrete path high above the sand and water that people can walk on. Whilst walking the sea wall, you see a lot of really cool people walking their dogs and talking together. But the best thing you see is the ocean itself: all around you and lovely as ever.
We stopped at the place where Isaiah first told me how beautiful he found me and how very much he liked me for everything I was, not just physically. We sat on the rock below the Wall where he poured his heart out, and I felt that same heart, the one which last summer was racing so fast, beating in the chest of my now husband. And what a wonderful & full heart I have found his to be!
We spoke about many things as we reminisced. We remembered how we felt last summer in that moment of confirmation. We remembered how Paul, Isaiah's dad, had called us lovebirds and then left us to our own devices, occasionally coming back to watch his oldest son fall in love. We remembered the ecstasy of finally being given (not finding) the other part of your self--the one who God meant for you all of those 24 years of struggle and joy.
Being here at the Boardwalk early has already been full of planning and beach visiting and getting-to-know people a bit and letter writing (for me) and blogging. But the best part of getting here early has been being filled up by the earthly lover of my soul whom God gave me as a representation of the love He has for me.
Knowing that Isaiah loves me, values what I add here, and sees all of the talents & gifts I have to offer, makes everything okay. No matter who doubts me or doesn't understand or utterly misses what I bring to the table, I know that the most important person, my husband & Beloved, knows the truth. And this is exactly how I feel about God! Marriage is a beautiful thing when the man God gave you to represent His love for you does just that.
Thank you, my husband and friend, for knowing who I am and loving every morsel of who that is. We will do great things together this Summer, and our Father will rejoice over us with gladness.
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